It is only 1 month until I get the absolute pleasure of celebrating my 2 year stroke-anniversary.
This time of year is proving to be very emotional for me due to all the baggage I carry from my Vertebral Artery Dissections and Strokes.
Don’t get me wrong, I am SO HAPPY that I went through my VAD/Strokes and ended up where I am, but every single step has been very difficult.
I say all the time how lucky I am…I am lucky that my stroke side effects were pretty minimal; I’m lucky that I had insurance at the time of the events(even though they tried to completely fuck me later!); I’m lucky that I have a great amount of people in my life who were/are there for me emotionally, physically and monetarily; And, in a way, I am lucky that I had lost my primary job due to the pandemic, so I was already on unemployment when I was in the hospital and recovering.
BUT…I am human and I get angry, sad and feel completely abandoned at times. I have a lot more of a story within me then the little blurb I spew out when prompted. Going through a major brain injury was a difficult and mysterious trauma that made me pivot my life in almost every way possible.
So, as part of my recovery and healing, I will try to put it all out here in the next few weeks…If I get some reads, great! If not, then getting it all out on a blog will still help me move forward. Maybe I will even aid others into not feeling so solitary in their struggle.
you’re doing good Kelly. self-reflection and writing are incredibly useful items to have in your wellness toolkit – and you’re making good use of those here. just like a workout journal you will be able to look back at your gains.
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peace,
j